Creativity Goals Check-In October 11, 2020

goals11Goals from Last Week – How Did it Go?

Writing

  • work on blog at least five days – three.
  • at least fourteen sessions of digitizing old writing – oh boy, I did six.
  • finish disability letter for the school – worked on it, didn’t finish.

Music

Lifestyle

  • sleep without the phone (a struggle you can read about here) – this will put me at 203 nights (29 weeks) in a row – yes.
  • write Morning Pages every day – oh no, just two (yesterday and today).
  • don’t look at phone until after Morning Pages – once, just today.
  • do an Artist Date – yes, two actually. As mentioned in this week’s Artist’s Way Reflections column post, I spent an hour listening to music and sorting through my clothes, and I’m counting it. I did one this morning too. I went to “The Differentialists,” a weekly meeting organized by some classmates where we go through and try to figure out medical mysteries, which is aligned with my imaginary life in Week Two of The Artist’s Way of being House. It was the most fun out of any Artist Date I’ve done in a long time.
  • clean my apartment – it’s gotten totally out of control and I have to move in less than a month so yeah – yes, finally. It was really stressing me out.

Reflections on the Week

In what I’m sure will be a shocker to everyone (NOT), it was another rough week. Sometimes, it feels like they’ll never end, and every time I think I’m turning a corner it just turns out to be a corner further into the abyss.

This week, I spent most of my time trying to secure housing. I think with that still on my plate and also with an impending move (my lease ends on Halloween), I’ve got to dial back some of these goals and just know that I’m not going to have the time I want to focus on them. Having a place to live has to come first, much as these goals feel like little blocks in a feeble fort against the abyss. Except when they feel like the abyss itself. Which brings me to digitizing.

Digitizing

Phase One is done, as indicated in last week’s goals post.

I’ve only done one session since. Since I’m highly motivated by charts and graphs and lists and goals, I’ve decided I’m going to track my percentage complete on the project, and hopefully being able to see that percentage move will help me stay motivated. Or that might be asking me too much. I’m hoping it’ll keep me from being so crushed under its weight that I can’t move.

The way I’m calculating the percentage is a little odd, and definitely an estimate (an actual calculation would be incredibly cumbersome and probably close to impossible).

I wish there was a way to put an equation on here. Or if there is, I wish I knew how to do it. A nice-looking equation the way it would look in a math textbook.

I’m taking the amount of pages done in a piece (let’s say 4 of 14 as is the current case in my first session), the number of pieces in the notebook (I’m on the first piece of 23), and the number of notebooks (I’m on the first notebook of 12) and then multiplying by a hundred to get a percent.

So for this first session, where I completed 4 pages in the first piece of the first notebook, that gives:

% Complete = ((4/14) x (1/23) x (1/12)) x 100 = 0.1035%

Hmm I got something different when I calculated it the other day (and posted on IG) because I accidentally had 16 pages for the first piece, and have now double-checked multiple times to be sure it’s actually 14).

I’ve made an excel spreadsheet so I can make it calculate for me from now on.

So 0.1035%. Not to be confused with 10.35%, I already multiplied by 100 as seen in the formula. So, a tenth of the way to 1 percent. It’s small but it’s not nothing.

The progress won’t be linear. I’m sure my own amount of time will vary by day and week, and even if I were to work at a robotically steady pace, the progress still wouldn’t be linear. Some pieces are short, just a page or two, and some are over a hundred. Some are already digitized, or partially already digitized. Some are a mess in finding the connections, especially since some of these “notebooks” aren’t notebooks at all but huge folders with straps that are stuffed with loose paper, mostly organized into chapters but also with some mess.

So the short ones and the already digitized ones are going to go quickly while the long ones that aren’t digitized will take quite a bit longer. So the percentage is the best workable approximation I could come up with, but it’s far from perfectly accurate, and the progress won’t be linear.

It’ll be something though, something to make it feel like I’m making progress, and that counts for a lot.

For my first session I posted my progress (though incorrect) and the album I listened to while digitizing to IG, and I think I might continue to do that as a way of making the whole project a little more fun.

General

I still need to do the disability letter. I tried to finish it by today but just couldn’t. I’m aiming for a new due date of the end of the month. It’s hard to predict anything for sure with housing up in the air.

And I’m hoping that once I finish that letter, and the move, and all that comes with moving, I’ll be able to get a good pattern in place and start making some serious progress.

In the meantime, I’m going to dial back some of these, and work on the lifestyle ones most of all since they impact my mood and energy levels so much. And also adding a lot of sorting in the vein of I’m moving soon, one way or another.

It’s a bit hard to make goals for this week because if things move quickly with housing, I could be spending most of my time working on that and have little time for other goals. And if that doesn’t happen, it’s a different story.

I’m setting the goals for the coming week with the understanding that there will probably end up being some serious shifting. Goals this week are pretty fluid with so much immediate uncertainty.

Goals for this Coming Week

Writing

  • work on blog at least five days
  • at least five sessions of digitizing old writing
  • work on disability letter for the school

Music

Lifestyle

  • sleep without the phone (a struggle you can read about here) – this will put me at 210 nights (30 weeks) in a row
  • write Morning Pages every day
  • don’t look at phone until after Morning Pages every day
  • do an Artist Date
  • finish sorting through clothes
  • finish sorting through books
  • sort through file cabinet
  • sort through storage
  • sort through kitchen cabinets

-April

PD: The picture at the top is this morning’s sunrise. The sky was mostly cloudy, except right at the horizon, so when the sun came up it made some interesting colors on the clouds. It’s not really related to the post. It just felt right.

Notes:

One thought on “Creativity Goals Check-In October 11, 2020

  1. You know, despite all the difficulties of this week and not achieving EXACTLY the goals you set, this was actually a *very* productive week! Not only did you manage to squeeze in TWO Artist’s Dates (one of which sounded like a really unique experience) and get organized for your upcoming move, but you also created two new systems for doing things that are helping you get unstuck. The digitizing percentage tracking is an interesting idea, as is the idea to post to IG images associated with music you listen to while clearing up. These are ways to motivate yourself on your own terms — a creative exercise in itself. Definitely a worthwhile use of time and energy! Congratulations.

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